When in Doubt, Be Lazy!

Some days are like this. It's not personal really but it sure feels that way after awhile....

So, it's raining...all day...the kind of rain that should feel cozy and sweet...but...but...argh!

So I decide it's a perfect day to work at my computer...but the computer is slow, won't do anything I want. I've restarted 4 times. the app i want to use just keeps stalling. so I try something else. that's stalling too. I'm starting to get very irritated (that's putting it somewhat milder than the truth).

So I decide the excess anger will be best used cleaning my room. I have to change my sheets because the bottom sheet tore, because...well, never mind. That story is not worth telling. I change the sheets but not without yelling a few colorful phrases. (yes, I do swear sometimes!)

And then I decide to vacuum. But wait, I have to get something from downstairs first. That's when I hear the water alarm. Our basement is leaking! and Pete just put down the rugs yesterday, thinking it was safe!

Then all that extra energy (ahem, anger) leaves the still messy bedroom and heads to the basement to get stuff off the floor. It's quite wet! I work on that as long as it takes two (Pete and I working together) and then I head back to the vacuuming. It starts out okay but I notice it's not sucking things up very good. I turn the vacuum over and all the dirt comes pouring out again! I have no idea how to fix, which is my definition of broken.

Then back to the computer, where the app I want to use is still not working, a complete circle of wasted time and energy. 

Some days are like this! I don't think it is personal but it sure feels like the universe is conspiring to test my fortitude and patience.

So I do the only left that I can do...write down my frustrations. And here I am writing. And just like that my mouth gets a smirk. I'm starting to be amused at how insanely confusing life can be. It suddenly strikes me how no matter how good your intentions are, no matter how flexible and adaptable, you just can't control the outcomes. Sometimes you just don't get dealt the right cards. It's not personal, it's just life.

I did have one thing go well today...the part before I tried to be productive, the lazy party was stunning. I was awesome at that and it went very well. 

So now, with a big grin on my face, I'm thinking...WHEN IN DOUBT, BE LAZY!

Best wishes on your day!

~just jules, 5/27/19

LOOKING FOR LIGHT AND LOVE

So something horrible happened yesterday and we can't ignore it. And something wonderful happened yesterday but we might have missed it. It is ever so subtle and yet powerful how each time tragedy strikes, our hearts grow a tiny bit closer to each other. We let down our shields for a moment and feel compassion. We open the door just a little bit more to the idea that we are connected, that we are truly one world neighborhood. In that brief moment before we've moved on to the next thing, love has a chance to grow. It doesn't feel wonderful but it is. Why? Because we need compassion in order to get to action, in order to get to peace. Because if a flame of love is ignited in each of us, we might just have enough light to find our way. I know it doesn't make sense. And please don't misunderstand. I'm not trying to gloss over the tragedy. It is indeed a devastating thing, one that will echo in our conversations for years to come, as others have. It is just that I hope the echo is love. Perhaps it's not possible to explain. All I know is that my heart has been broken through tragedy and loss, sometimes to the point of complete surrender. And each time, in that moment after I surrendered to the brokenness, when I put my hands up in despair, that's when the love came pouring in, from friends, from strangers, from the Spirit. That's when the love has grown the most. Leonard Cohen's "Anthem" consoles us with this phrase: "there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in." That's where I feel a nudge to go today, to look for the light coming through the crack. So here we are again. Can you feel it? Where will love lead us now? What if we let our lights shine together?

First steps

sweet chubby bare feet cutting their first paths across the hardwood floor arms out for balance and reaching my grandson learning to walk and climb and tumble and bump into things which I find so encouraging inspired again in my own journey to take the path accept the bumps and falls and rise again strong daring greatly sparkling eyes grin his mouth opens in wonder and I'm inspired again to enjoy the moment wallow in the joy of it living life as it comes
every step another adventure ~grandma jules, 8/25/16