Tuesday, October 20, 2015

A prayer by Ulrich Schaffer

This prayer has been sticking with me the last few days and I just feel drawn to share it with you. It is written by Ulrich Schaffer in his book, "Searching for You, " which has been a favorite of mine since I was in college (a long time ago). It is no longer in print so I share it with you here. Savor it and enjoy! ~ love, jules

YOU ARE
I HEAR YOU
IN THE CRY OF THE GULL
IN THE WIND CHASING THE LAST LEAVES OF FALL
IN THE WHISPER OF A CHILD
I SEE YOU
IN THE ANIMAL SHAPES OF CUMULUS CLOUDS
IN THE TREES TEN TIMES MY AGE
IN THE WRINKLED FACE OF A WOMAN OVER NINETY
I TASTE YOU
IN THE SWEETNESS OF WHOLE WHEAT IN BLACK BREAD
IN THE SMOOTH RICHNESS OF AN AVOCADO
IN THE CREEK WATER FROM A CUPPED HAND
I SMELL YOU
IN THE AIR AFTER A CLEANSING RAIN
IN THE FRESLY CUT GREEN ONION
IN THE THICK CARPET OF AUTUMN LEAVES
I TOUCH YOU
IN THE SMOOTH BARK OF A WHITE BIRCH
IN THE ROCK BENEATH THE SUMMIT TEARING MY HANDS
IN THE TEXTURE OF WET AND DRY SAND
I READ YOUR LETTERS TO ME
IN THE TALKING EYES OF A STUDENT
IN THE JOY OF SHARED GRIEF
IN THE APPROPRIATE PHRASE RELEASING TENSION
IN THE SILENCE THAT FOLLOWS THE STORM
IN THE PLUNGE OF A SUICIDE
IN THE NOVELIST CREATING HIS CHARACTERS
IN THE TEAR CRIED IN SELF-PITY
IN THE TELEPHONE THAT NEVER RINGS
IN THE LIFE-CYCLE OF A SALMON
IN THE CANDLE FLAME THAT DIES IN ITS OWN WAX
IN THE WHITE CANE OF A BLIND MAN
IN THE EMPTY CHURCHES
IN THE BEGGARS MOUTH ORGAN
IN THE UNFINISHED SYMPHONY AND THE UNPAINTED PICTURE

TEACH ME TO HEAR AND TO SEE
TEACH ME TO TASTE, TO SMELL, AND TO TOUCH
AND TEACH ME TO READ
TO READ YOUR HANDWRITING
YOUR LETTERS TO ME

Monday, October 12, 2015

Changing seasons

Changing Seasons
warm sunny blue sky yesterday
cloudy, blustery cool wind today
a few raspberries still growing
even as the leaves on the bushes
brown and drop
the changing season is 

as fickle as my heart
one day I am absolutely certain
I am ready to move on, get things done
the next day 
I have crawled back in my bed
to wallow in sweet memories 
and mourn the losses
one minute I'm going to take on the world

sure as any that my heart can take it all on
the next minute, I've decided to take it slow
let's think it through one more time
and then a deep sigh to pause
I look out the window and see
I will change as the seasons do
as I have always done
try or not I will go with the tide
someday looking back on this moment
with gratitude and grief
noticing how the leaves that dropped
became food for the spring
and it will be enough


~jules, 10/12/2015


Thursday, October 8, 2015

A Brief Summary of My Life

dreams dreaming
songs singing
grief crying
wonders wondering
doubts doubting
hope hoping
thoughts thinking
emotions feeling
eyes noticing
ears hearing
prayers praying
heart opening
heart opening
heart opening

~Jules, 10/8/2015

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

A Rainbow of Hope

Some days, the color, 
the light shining
on a blade of grass
is more abundance,
more joy than I can bear
a rainbow of hope
on my path

~jules, 10/6/2015

photo by Julie A. Bonde