Due to extreme toxicity in my body from reactions to the chemotherapy (taxol), I skipped my treatment last Wednesday. My body really needed the extra days to detox and recover a little. in that process, today has been one of my best days in awhile. I even had some energy today.
I met with my oncologist early this morning (virtually). We talked about all the reactions and how I"m doing and came up with a plan. First she cut the dosage for my chemo, going forward. Perhaps if it is not such a big dose, I won't get as strong a reaction. And then she said that going forward we would be deciding on a week by week basis whether we will finish the rest of the Taxol treatments. Currently, I have 4 more to go. She is hoping I will finish at least 2 more of those. I am glad that we have a back up plan, that there is a way out, if my body needs it. In a few weeks, this could all be over! Praying for the strength to make there.
And then at 10:30 am, I had my treatment for this week, which takes about 2 1/2 hours. I was sleepy and napped through most of it. The treatment room is always so quiet and peaceful. The nurses are always so kind.
As for my side effects,
- the rash is still there on my arms but the burn and pain from the burn is gone! I am so grateful. Thank you dermatologist for giving me the right ointment!
- my bone pain (mostly in my legs) is still bothering me. I continue to try to figure out when is the best time to take pain meds and sleeping aids for the best rest for me.
- For my neuropathy (numbness in my feet and fingers), my oncologist prescribed another med that she says will bring some relief. So far I'm not noticing it but it's only been 4 days. I am hopeful.
- getting a good night sleep depends on how well I manage all of the above. But today I had a couple of awesome naps and now I feel pretty good.
So I'm coming back out of the rough of the last two weeks, getting more help from the docs and nurses and gradually finding my way back to life. Today's a good day! Yay! I even cleaned up the living room and the kitchen and made Pete dinner. 😊
If you haven't heard from me personally in awhile, my apologies. I just haven't had the energy to reach out to my close friends lately. I know you're there. I know you care but lately, I've spent most of my time just managing the pain and misery. I will reach out as my energy returns for it.
Meantime, I miss you all! I know you miss everyone too! I miss the sparkle in your eyes, the deep vibration in your laughter and song, the delight in your dreams of light and your sincere desire to make the world a better place. I miss you and I'm grateful to know you are there! so grateful! Thanks for being you and offering the world your heart.
I hope your day has some hope in it!
I leave you with on my recent favorite pictures.
The leaves drop down to catch the sunrise on a recent morning, shortly before falling to the ground.
This image fills my heart with color and hope and gratitude for the beauty. Enjoy!
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